Ganesh Chaturdhi

I am displaying a palavelli decoration at my mama's place. My uncle have indeed make a good job of decorating the lord Ganesha. I wish I have similar patience levels.

You should hold it, Especially when you are hardest hit.

It is been a good amount of time, with out an Update on this blog. This is partly due to lack of internet and the phase of life where you brood about missed chances. These days I retrospect every decision I have taken - and feel incredibly guilty about my choices - both decision and indecisions. May be this is the worst situation I will ever be , I think I should stick to my guns.

I am supposedly stay in hyderabad and concentrate on civil services exam preperation that is going to be held next year. Contrary to expectations, I am trying to blew some life in to my otherwise supposed to be sedate life. Few things are happening to me now a days.

First thing is watching lot of new movies - normally I would not go to movie theators, more so if friends are not there. But things are changing quite rapidly, I have watched about 4 movies - Bujjigadu , Kathanayakudu , Baladur and Salute - all myself.

Only thing, I am good at these days is in reading news paper. I am thorough with Hindu and ET from the past one month. And writing Geography exams at Srinivas sir, but most of them with very little preperation.

One more promise I am trying to fulfill these days is - attending friend's marriage. How ever I get pinched by the fact that I have very few resources at my disposal. After I become financially independent once, I am thinking a lot of times to ask money even from my father. I dont know - may be I want to assert my independence. :) .

Ok. Enough. As always, all of my blogs are full of myself. May be I got to become little more mature to take every thing under my stride. Let us hope , I will become a man sooner.

Google Quote

Everybody is busy, busy, busy. But, where are they going?

Bush - Food prices

How come americans choose such a fool as a president - for twice - not even once. He does not even know what comes first in the list of priorities in life. It always the food first that we need to have rather than the fuel for your car. You are just putting blame on some body else, Even when you have power to change the things. You can not cheat the world for long, Mr. Bush.

If successor presidents make foriegn policy decisions as you did, Then the time will come soon to stop honoring US as the powerful country.

From full of confusion.

Its foolish to try loving your best friends. If it dint happen as expected, You will lose everything in that relationship. Then on you have to be extra careful for the other person, that you are not making their lives miserable. Though you care for other person, you should act as if you dont. This feeling kills you..

All the problems in a relationship start when the other person wants some thing extra from the relationship than you are willing to give in. During the storm of arguments, ppl might loose that relationship. After a while, they start wondering how did they do this to the other person/to themselves.

Any way, It would be great if both of them are happy in the end. After all, why are we living this life, just to make ourselves happy.

One more important observation about life is, You can live even if you are not happy with your life and with what you are doing. Its just the hope that you can be happy in the future that will drive you.

Manimala weds Sudheer

To both Manimala and Sudheer, It is very difficult to find a pair who love and understand each other fully. You will become a wonderful pair. Enjoy this curvy and bumpy road of life to the fullest. Wish you a very happy married life to both of you. -- Raj.

Two Telugu novels.

I have read two telugu novels online yesterday. A small description :

• Bommaborusu : This novel describes about male domination of woman in a married relationship. And how some of the small things, that can lead to big problems in a relationship. In this transition in the societal phase, where woman have the financial freedom and independence - for which man has to learn to reconcile with. If he does not adapt to this new role in the society, both the partners has to suffer in the relationship.
• One of my close friends told me this about a relationship. In a relationship, what you require is peace and happiness. It does not matter whom you are with as long as you are happy and make others with you happy. Lets hope he is right.
• 60 days with Beautiful enemy : A typical 90's telugu movie story. But some how I always get amazed by the characterization of the roles by the writer. Nice play write by Yerramsetti Sai. Writers are the gifted souls.

Now some bad news ,

• Anand loses in blindfold with Aronian in Amber chess 08 . Slips back to 4 th position after this round. Five more rounds to go and my champ is down in blindfold. :( . Way to go Anand. Please pick it up . :)
• I am not going anywhere with my preperation. But I have to concentrate as this is now or never situation. I need to start with my Mathematics preparation.

This month - July

What can I say ? My life is going through lot of whirlwinds. I am not happy at all. I am sure I will regret for this in the future some day. But i am not willing to do things otherway round. However there happened some things which in normal circumstances , any body can be happy. Some of them are, -- US visa (B1) approved . So my travel to Menlopark ( near Palo alto) will be in September. -- Luckily got a C160 model Samsung phone in FM phone contest won. -- Service allocation for Civil services exam 2006 has been done. After which it has become clear that yours truely who is in waiting list will definitely get some service this year... Strangely some times, l know even before i participate in some contests that i am going to win. ( manalo mana maata -- konni sarlu odipoyanu lendi :) ) .. SD SD.. Anyways loggin out for now..

Where I have been for the last 10 months

Well, After 8 months long duration, actually writing this again. Partly this delay was attributed to stay at my village where net connection is very slow but costly and also to the preparation of civil services mains examination.

How did it go ?

This is my 3rd attempt in Mains examination, But I am not satisfied with my performance in the Test. Should have prepared for writing practice. I should do it at least for my next and most importantly last attempt. This year though papers were easy for me not able to finish them in time.. each one of them.. Had I mastered that art, I would have scored minimum 50 marks more. Thankfully, my maths paper this time was far better.. Marks in this paper along with GS will determine my fortunes in this one.. Geography Papers are disasters in the whole exam.. Though I knew most of the answers, I have not been able to organise myself well.

If God give me another chance , I would do the writing practice every day especially for Geography.

Now What is the next Step in my Life ? Why?

Looking for Jobs in Computer Science. From the discussions of important persons in my life I have decided to defuse the pressure bomb on me (which comes from the question what if I dint get through Civil Services). So this led me to looking for Job opportunities in my mother stream ( Computer Science). Chalo will keep writing to you at least for the time being.. :-)

Chronicle of Last 7 months

Jun 3rd : Have just finished everything at IIT Delhi (M.Tech) and Boarded train to Andhrapradesh
Jun 6-7: With friends at Hyderabad
Jun 8th : At Home after 7 months..
Jun 15th: Subscribed Magazines: Frontline, Yojana, Civil Services Chronicle, Competition Wizard
Jul 12th: Its my Birthday

Aug 2: Qualified to write mains again
Aug 8: went back to delhi.
Aug 13: Convocation at IIT Delhi. But did not go to the address (kiran majumdar shah)
Aug 16: Sent the Mains Application form
Aug 28: Joined General Studies(mains) at Srirams coaching center, Delhi.


Setp Ist Week : My brother joined into MS Ramaiah institute of Advanced studes in the course M.Tech (Embedded Systems)
Sept 23: Written some mock tests in Geography.
Sept 25: Got some problem with Eye.. later got viral fever..
Sept 28: Boarded train for AP.
Sept 25-oct 8: Malaria and Typhoid .. Bed-Ridden for 10 days .. crucial time lost

oct 19-oct 29: Mains Examination. All Ist papers went pretty well. but 2nd papers screwed me..
mathematics IInd paper - dint solve 1.5 question ( so expecting score as last time)
29 Geography IInd paper - Question paper was pretty general (so dont know whether i written well or not)
19 GS IInd paper - very difficult ( so expecting a reasonable score )



Nov1- Nov 13 : Spend time with my family.. that includes 2 or 3 days stay @ Ganapavaram , my 2nd Grand ma's place.
Nov13-Dec 13: Rocks big time.. I have not even touched my books.. vacillated for some time whether to take up job or not. spend some quality time with friends.. infact almost visited all of my friends in Hyd..
prasad: TCS ATC - project lead
Babu : Now a team lead @ wipro. most happening guy ..
Ashok: Recovered from the bed . now working at TCS..
Hari : Rocking big time.. changed to Motorola from Xius.
They formed a company Orange Medhas.. I wish they will get a lot of projects this year.
Bunny: maa mama gadu naa kallu teripistunnadu both with his fundas and sci fi books.
Kalyan : now a team lead @ keane . busy with his work.
Rishi : busy with paper works and his thesis
Sashi: busy with thesis work.
Sudhakar: Chala vishayalu telusukuntunna nenu veedi daggarinunchi.. life ku sambandhinchi.. my roommate ippudu kuda..
Kamalakar & paramesh : Sudhakar friends . ippudu naa room mates.
Inka chala mandini marchipoyi untanu..
Dec 13-18: Murali garini kalisanu and Rishi , sesh and sriram nu kalisanu..
Dec 24rh : Kalyan Birthday.
Dec last week: With my parents.
Jan Ist: started preparing for next prelims examination.
Jan 7th : Hari Birth day.

Good bye to MTech @ IITD

I have finally finished with my M.Tech work at IIT Delhi.. I am happy for completing it this faster. I have been really looking after for this day atleast from the last one year.. :-) The last week was really hectic because of project thesis writing , finishing touchs to the project work and defending the thesis work. etc work.. Thank god, I have finished the work satisfactorily to my professor Mr. Naveen Garg.. A really nice one to work with.. ( Nenu ikkada evariki soap veyyadam ledu.. :-) ).. Hmm But the last two days are really worst because of the beaurocracy over here. I was happened to meet atleast 10 people to get no dues forms signed, and almost all of them accepted and signed my forms without even looking at my face .. :-) .. This is the thing, which I dont like about beaurocracy.. Even though, there are lot of people are there to be vigilant, no body cares about the job at their hand.. :-).. I dont think any of this signatures are necessary... They are just waste of time.. But I need to waste one more day in doing that.. Otherwise, I would not get my degree certificate.. So better I do it tomorrow... Adi andi sangati, May be tomorrow will be one of my final days @ IIT Delhi.. chalo then Good night. yours truely, sitharamaraju

PelliPusthakam

This is the time for movies.. I am not able to find watch new movies.. so I watched this "pelli pusthakam", one of my all time favourites. I really like the quotations that Rajendraprasad uses in that movie.. Whenever I hear them, I plan to write them over some place.. So adi ippatiki kudirindi.. some of them are .. avakasanni batti manchi vallu chedda vallu kavachhcu , and avakasam lekapothe chedda vallu kuda chetakaka manchi vallu laga migili povachchu. (vridhdha naari prativrataha :-)) asuya ghatina premaku dharmameter.. manchi cheddalu raasulu posinattu veru veruga vundavu, avasaranni batti manchitanam avakasanni batti chedda tanam perugutu vuntayi.. /ldots.. (oops too much of latex .. ) yours truely, sitharamaraju. (sorry for writing this whole thing in telugu , coz I feel some things are expressible the best in our mother tongues only.. :-)

My family

Hi all, Chalo then , I would start introducing myself and my family only.. Maa father peru : Kakumanu Sambasivarao. [mashtaru garu] Maa mother peru: Ramanjana Devi Prastutam permanent Residence: Opp. Mandal Office , Santhamagulur Occupation : Official ga Teacher garu and Unofficial ga ithe money lender ga famous [otherwise maa iddarini chadivinchadam konchem kashtame mari .. ] So Santhamagulur and Ballikurava mandallallo baaga famous.. manchi administrator gaa peru.. And even Narasarao pet and Guntur corporate colleges tho chala manchi parichayam undi. That is about my father.. And one more thing , maa district lo manchi chess player ani kooda peru undi.. I still remember he winning some of the distict level tournaments [in my class 7th or so.. ]. So chess adatam aayana hobby. His strengths being disciplined,simplicity , frankness , analysis of other strengths and Organization skills. Hmm and about weaknesses, short tempered and edina tappu jarigithe ala tittestaru evarina ani choosukokunda.. [chala sarlu anavasaramgaa naa tappu lekunda bali ayipoyanu.. ofcourse maa mother inka pedda bakra.. ] And short term goals, memu iddaram tondaraga settle aithe manchi illu kattukoni naa daggariki vachcheyyadam.. And about my mom, andaru "Devi" ani pilustaru.. patience konchem ekkuva ane cheppali .. so nenu, tammudu intlo unnanta kaalam amma venukale tirugutu untam.. hmm biggest strength is being having lot of patience, andaritho chala fast gaa kalisipotundi.. Weaknesses being .. [maa amma gurinchi nenu cheppanu.. i love my mom very much .. :-) ]. intlo father emi chepte ante.. ofcourse everybody will have their turn of saying things.. If we can defend ourselves well, then manam cheppinatlu panulu jarguthayi .. evaru evarini usual gaa restrict cheyaru.. hmm discipline chala important.. only outcast being myself .. [intlo 9 to 10 varaku nidra pogala dhairyam chesedi nene].. migilina vallu andaru 6 ku lechi potaru.. father and brother poddunne shuttle ku vellipotaru and mom pooja chese pani lo and dod ku carriage sardadam lo full busy.. nenu matram intlo vunte happy ga nidresta... Hmm inka tammudu [ Ramakrishna], baaga gaarabam gaa perigadu intlo .. so inka life lo emi cheyyalo clear ga emi anukovadam ledu.. kaani kopam ekkuva .. kaani andarini fullugaa baaga navvutu and navvistoo untadu.. chinnappati nunchi eppudu kottukune vallam.. ippudu maanesam le [mari 21 yrs appudu kottukunte chooddaniki anta baaga undadani ].. kaani vaadu full batch maintain chese vaadu annamata naaku against gaa.. baaga maatlada galadu.. Things nu manage cheyyagaladu.. but he is the one who is having lot of potential to tap.. choodali aa potential ni ela tap cheyyalo ani.. strengths : andarini friends chesukovadam , kashtapadakunda markulu techchukovadam weaknesses: having no clear vision & goals etc, dependency on parents.. ina naa gurinchi meeku peddaga cheppuko akkarledu anukunta.. oooo, baboyi naaku chance ichchesaru kada ani maa intlo valla gurinchi full cheppesinatlu unnanu.. entina cancer ni kada .. ;) .. self dabba baaga kottukogalanu.. babulu inka mee turns anukuntaa.. konchem mee parents gurinchi kooda chepte nenu anandista.. yours truely, sitharamaraju.

Thanx.. Lot of Discoveries

Hi all, We have to discover all the great qualities with in our selves and the people around us. They are always with you and will be with you , we just need to have enough patience and time to discover them. So I hope all of us have that will power and a bit of luck to discover them with in us. hmm .. philosophy konchem ekkuva ayindi anukunta.. Hey Bindu @ IIT , Ashuthosh and Gullu, thank you very much .. Only because of you only I am able to finish my project work with in the short span of available time.. ooh All of them are my juniors over here at IIT Dept. I hope they must be enjoying their holidays by now at their respective places. keep up the good work folks.. once again thank you very much.. cheers, sitharamaraju

Kya Hora Raha Hi!!

Hi all !! I have been busy with the lot of things after I wrote some thing on this blog last time. Hmm I have finished my MTech course work in CSE Dept,IIT Delhi.. I got 8.75/10 SG this semester. But yet to finish with my Thesis work. I have done quite a bit of work about my project. But I am about to start my Thesis writing in an hour or so. Before that, I have written my Prelims exam also quite well. I will qualify this time t00, most certainly. I am expecting to get 70+/100 in Mathematics and about 95+ / 150 in General Studies. So its time to prepare for the Big hurdle, Mains again. Lets hope for the best.. :-) I am planing to defer my joining date on medical grounds. Lets hope they will allow me to do so. But I prefer to finish lot of things before I leave for AP on 5th,June by Sampark Express. Hmm sare.. Will talk to you later.. yours truely, sitharamaraju

Shock

UPSC results are out, After lot of waiting and full of expectations , I am not able to qualify for the interview level in Civils ( Mains ) ,2004 in my first attempt. So things are looking bleak now.. so should reorganize myself and start preparing for next prelims examination again.. I am in sort of Big trouble telling others about my result.. Everybody is thinking I am just kidding .. but the saddest part is I dint get through. How good it would have been , had I been through ?? :-).. Anyways, there always be the next time for everything. Lets listen to this now... "The greatness of ourselves is not in never failing, But raising everytime we fail .."

- Confucious

Lots of Waiting 4 Mains Results

Hi !! I have been waiting for mains results from 7th of this month. I guess I dint felt this much pressure even i am writing examinations also. Many of my friends asked me about the results both at IIT , IIIT and Coaching center. This makes feel good about me. As so many people concerned about my results and success. But at the same time, I am feeling pressure of their concern.. When ever I call up home, my parents tell me not to worry about the result and to keep look forward for other things like next prelims and interview. But he himself calls up and enquire about the result every day .. ;) So The whole of last week has been spent waiting for the results. I have hardly done anything except

• Watching some very good movies,
• Some magazines about current affairs,
• some part of Interview preperation.

And If I look back , I have the feeling that I prefer to concentrate and focus on my preperation and project work a lot more than I am doing write now. I am sure this is a very critical juncture for my family as on 15 th this month, both my mains and my brother's GATE results are expected. Lets hope for the best.. ( I am not acting shrewed enough here as I am not preparing for my worst cases ). :-) So from 15th march, I would be very busy doing preperation for something (either interview or the 2005 prelims) .. So thank god I would be doing something rather than waiting for some thing... My roomie "Sudha" is working very hard for his prelims.. I will join him this week in case i dint get through mains for Interview. Otherwise I would join him in the next month. Ok then .. Lets wait for the results till then. Yours truely, sitharamaraju

Friends @ IIT Delhi

When I opted out for IIT Delhi for my destination to do my M.Tech and Civils preperation. I thought 'OMG' two years of hard work .. Will I be able to perserve for that long ?? But as I come here, things are a lot different fortunately for me.. I have joined in ENSEMBLE for Geography preperation on Aug 2nd 2003,.. And joined MTech over here IIT Delhi on July 28th.. Infact , I guess my 2nd class at Delhi is at Ensemble. :-) .. This would not have been possible If I would not met "Venkat". He is my senior here @ IIT.. And he helped me in enquiring about the coaching centers and hell lot of stuff like buying all the necessary things here.. He is a sweet man.. And looked after and guided me in lots of situation over here.. I feel rather lucky to be part of his pals group. "Sudha" -- My girl friend at IIT Delhi. Oopss.. He is my room mate here. Both of us working for the same goal . So we thought it would be better for us to work together and We are sure we have created a lot more through synergey. Most of the part in my success @ Prelims should be given to this guy. I usually draw lot of inspiration from this guy. He is a charming personality. He talks sweet , slow and composed. Never throw emotions.. And If he were a girl, I would have done anything to get her. ;). Every guy / girl from rural should read his biography to know what it takes to be successful .. He is a fighter man.. I am sure I will see him in one of the best positions in Govt. India in the years to come. All the best dude. "Bharadwaj" -- He is my classmate @ MTech Computersciece Dept. One of the coolest guys I have met.. He helped me a lot in completing my assignments, project work at time. I owe you a lot my boy.. You are one of my close pals. he knows lot of things about me. A sensible guy, He placed at "SoftJin" at Bengalore. I guess he will be joining over there as he love Benga and his classmates over there.. Dont ask me whether they are males or females ?? ;) "Jyothi" - one of my sweet friends over here. Man , he is such a charming personality. you can talk with him for hours without looking at your watch.. He is doing his M.Tech from Power Systems.. He is too sweet guy.. but his tagline is "nakesta" quite famous around the MTech Telugu guys over here.. Hey pals.. there are lot others I should mention over here.. But I have to go now as we have STIC Dinner @ my hostel today.. So I got to go.. otherwise I will miss my share of Ice Creams. bye bye, cheers, sitharamaraju

Kallu Gang.

Hey !! Today I have recapitulated some of the events in those B.Tech 4 years at IIIT Hyderabad. The days when we played volleyball without going to Govindarajulu sir class, the way he chased and ragged us in the classes [ Hyderabad Sultans, Vijayanagaram Maharajulu ].. The way we used to fight each other for House Games and Batch Cricket matches.. The way we shout each other in the labs when we play "Capture the Flag [CTF - Quake]".. Those "Dumb sharades" with our Kallu gang.. These are some of things which I never gonna forget in my life... Hey here are some of my close friends blogs, so have a look at it.. people say that you can get a person by looking at their friends. so you can try your hand at me .. :D Hari ( http://hari.medhas.org ) Shy, religious but serious fighter. But you can only find him at playgrounds at IIIT.. champion of all games.. rather shy and trustworthy.. May be one of the people who can move across all the groups of my batch without any hesitations. And now working for "Xius Tech". Guys he is their "Best Employee" award holder.... Prasad (http://tux.medhas.org/) Indefatigable, Veratile and Self-booking S.V.Prasad. Please don't ask him how he got his nick "Don" at psychore. He is working for ATC at TCS. Should say "God of Linux" .. And is there any one at ATC , who dont know Prasad ?? No chance. One of those guys whom I envy a lot.. :-) .. Kalyan ( The Visionary ) Popular as "Pilla bomb".. He always amaze me with his organizational skills be it felicity or Vinayakachaviti vratham or anything.. Any place single hand "kalyan- The bomb". I would be surprised if he not move up his corporate ladder in the midterm for the kind of negotiation and presentation skills that he has... Now He might be actually surprising Keane's project managers by his analysis.... Right now, he is too busy to write a blog.. so please bear with him. Hmm with this, I will close this thread though this is not complete. But will write about others in the group and my class as soon as possible. Before ending, Will give a link of my friends photos and prasad's brain child -- new "tux"... http://medhas.org/gallery/index.php?list=events/StuffedTux&page=1. cheers, sitharamaraju.

My Ramblings about Project and GOA

Hi !! I have done with the Mid-term project presentations just now. Two days and nights , We are successfully done with the Project work. Learnt a lot of new technical things in the past two days. One of them is Latex.. Infact it is one of the effective softwares in Linux in competing with MSoft. Three more hectic months, I will be done with M.Tech, Computer Science at IIT Delhi. Looking forward for the releasing day. Hey ,here is some of my observations about GOA .. Anti-Defection Law : I thought after enacting this, Things would be brighter and stable in the political situation of India. But I got dis-illusioned after the following incidents. Ist , Governer dismissed the BJP Govt after CM proved his majority. :-) . 2nd, Congress able to make one of the BJP MLAs resign ( Who knows how much money interchanged between parties ? How will they are going to earn it back ?? Who will pay for the expenses for the by-election?) 3rd, Where is the punitive punishment for that MLA ?? (Is getting Minsitry a punishment in India ?? )

I have few thoughts how we can make corrections to the situations prevailing. Governers should have no political connections in the past.. And there should be some judicial authority and control over their decisions.. (such as this , But things will become slow).. And for Defections of this sort, Life term ban from politics should be imposed ( is it to harsh ?? No, look at how many people he is betraying by looking for his selfish motives.). And he has to pay for all the expenses of the by-election.

I hope we need to educate people about these things.. But are our Young Indians in a position to observe and respond to these acts of selfishness?? or They themselves making money by working for companies ?? Lets hope and wish for the better things to come. But definitely, Things are moving for the better. Because things can not become any worser than this .. :-) -------- Sitha